First off, I just want to thank everyone who has supported me during this ordeal. To everyone who has RT’d or donated, thank you. Your generosity has helped me immensely.
To all the other struggling artists, who have helped to get the word out, thank you. I know times are tough for everyone, so I appreciate all your love.

My Family and I are trying to negotiate with the hospital to bring my bill down to something “NORMAL”. 200K is beyond ridiculous. I also qualify for Medicaid, which will help out a lot. So, there are ways to work around astronomical health care bills. But, obviously this is a billion dollar business, and they want their money. I have already received my first bill, not even a week out of the hospital. $200 just for a pelvic sonogram. $200 to look at my “hooha” with a scope. Pricey! Hm? – I feel really awful putting my family through the stress of having to come up with money for this. I’m an adult, 25 years old, I should be able to take care of myself. But, there is no health care for a starving artist. You either succumb to working in the bowels of Cubicleland in order to acquire insurance, or you’re out on the street.

This needs to change! We need a new health care reform, ASAP!
As a community we need to fight for this! Not just for me, but for everyone like me.
I went 6 years without insurance before I ended up working for an insurance company. I know what they are like. They are evil. They don’t want to help you. They just want your money. And that is not what health CARE is about. It shouldn’t be.
People who need medical attention should receive it regardless of their financial status.
If you are sick, you should be treated!
I remember sitting in the ER and receiving the nastiest looks from the admitting nurses. As if they were annoyed by the fact that I wasn’t insured. They looked at me, and treated me like a leech. I recall my Dr. saying to my Mother “we know this is a procedure in which we’re working for practically nothing, but we have to do what we have to do.” It made me feel like garbage. Like in his eyes I wasn’t worth saving because I wasn’t paying him his desired fee. As if because I qualified for Medicaid, I wasn’t worth it. But, because he’s a Doctor, he HAD to do it. Like someone held a gun to his head. There is no sympathy for the ill and uninsured. No one takes circumstance, or personal situations into account. It’s gimme, gimme, gimme! Take, take, take!

I was scammed by Nigerians a few months ago. My Mother had to shell out $1700 to bail me out of debt. I still owe her that money. I had my cellphone shut off because I couldn’t pay my bill after being fired from the very health care provider I spoke of earlier. I owe Verizon over $400. And now THIS. I have busted my ass to find a “practical” job while still working on my craft. I have held benefits, and played shows to practically empty rooms, begging for tips, just to start paying back some of the money I owe. And then I ended up in the hospital. This has no been a good year for me, or for any of us. I hate money. I hate the system in which we live. I hate that people cannot be taken care because of their financial/economic status. It’s ludicrous, it’s unfair, and it’s not right. People are people. We all breathe the same air, we deserve to receive the same health care!

I beg of you. If not for me, but for yourself. Take a stand!
Do your research. Find out what you can do to help, to change this shitty system.
I know that as soon as I pull through this, as soon as I can work again, and really fight. I am going to!!!

I am healing everyday. But, I still find myself very exhausted, very quickly. I’m not even a full week out of the hospital yet. It takes time, I know. But I hate sitting idle. I want to be doing what I love. I have tried to push myself, in order to make myself happy. But, I am just too weak right now. I had to cancel rehearsal for tomorrow, and the show is 2 wks away. It bums me out, and I have become depressed because I feel so held back. I know, I will pull through, I know I will survive, I always do. And it helps to know I have so many amazing, beautiful people rallying around me, and supporting me. The love is incredible. So, again, thank you EVERYONE! In a world that is mostly evil, and greedy, it is so great to know that there are some good people left. I love you.

And thank you.

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